at this point i really dont get it. why must people feel the need to own the people they claim to love wholeheartedly? i mean, if you set the person free and the person chooses to love you back despite the temptaions all around, wouldnt that be a greater love than anything you forcefully try to twist into your ideal relationship?
but of course, im as guilty as the next person, though perhaps to a lesser extent. we all have a streak of possessiveness in us. i guess its human nature.
right now i really thank God for everything that He's done despite everything that im facing right now. my mom just came home with good news regarding her business trip. i might be going to university of melbourne after all. suddenly the future seems much brighter and open to possibilities, i finally feel like i have a choice. but i feel apprehensive at the same time. now that the chance has unexpectedly come after months of tears and pleading, im actually terrified of the drastic change ahead. to start anew someplace else by yourself. but i know that if i turn this down i would want to bang my head daily against the wall for the regret of the risk not taken. so ohwell, its still too soon to confirm anything, time will tell (:
you could be my unintended