i hate how drastically my emotions fluctuate all the time, so much so that i dont even trust my own opinions on certain things. i could be extremely hyped up and ecstatic about an issue at a point in time, but a few hours later my mood would just crash down. negative emotions come flooding in instead and i wonder what the heck i was all excited about in the first place, and how could i be so naive to initially believe that things were that good. this does not refer to any particular situation, but literally everything that i come across. and it sucks. i want to be more stable emotionally, to be firm about my feelings and not have it change from time to time. i want someone to tell me how everything will end up, so i know what to feel and thus my emotions do not have to be processed through my overactive and troublesome imagination.
on to a more depressing note. it sucks being broke! and fat! RAHHHH.
i like this picture cuz i secretly think i look slimmer than usual in it. hurr. tabi/debbie and me! (: love you girl.
Where are you now?
As I'm swimming through this stereo
I'm writing you a symphony of sound
Where are you now?
As we rearrange these songs again
This mix could burn a hole in anyone
It was you I was thinking of
It was you I was thinking of