Don't leave now, not yet
There were time, we regret
And I'm sorry
Somehow,
I only wanted to make you proud

If I could only let you know
I'd give up everything I own
For just one more day with you
There's nothing I wouldn't do
I could not let it pass me by
If I make every sacrifice
To bring me back your love
If only we could live twice
If only we could live twice

When you told me, I froze
It still echoes in my soul
Please forgive me, if I didn't say
I love you
Every single day

i still remember this song. even after removing the strings that come attached with it i still must say that it still strikes a chord in my heart because its a great song. i think we all take too many things for granted and dont bother to count our blessings often enough. and only when things slip us by do we realize the importance of them and how circumstances would not have happened if we treasured them more. and so, even though im not a very emotional person in public (cold hearted even), im taking the opportunity now to say thank you to all the people that have made an impact in my life, and you would know who you are the day that i die and reagan opens my blog. haha. just a few for now. to these friends, i cant tell you how much i love you and how grateful i am everyday to have found people like you. especially to grace toren siewchi wonus yuzheng jacob tabi stel jan, shane sam jon, you guys have been here for me through everything these two long years and i owe you forever. thank you for accepting me for who i am and being there for me the times i needed someone to confide and a shoulder to cry on. i cant express how much i mean those words. please know ill be there for you whenever you need anything, and im filled with deep gratitude with the certainty that you guys would be here for me too.

and to reagan, even though im hesitant in saying emotional stuff first and i spend most of my time jacking you, im putting my heart in the open now by saying that i love you. im sorry for being paranoid in feeling that we seem to be fading from time to time, mainly because i really am afraid we would one day. thank you for being my source of comfort and strength, and for trying to pull me out of the endless pit of misery i seem to be in. please dont give up on us, im trying too.

okay enough for now before this blog melts with corniness and runny emotions. on a lighter note, heres a picture of dimitry from so you think you can dance. i love the whole unbuttoned tshirt thing. and the hot bod of course.